Karma Are You Out There?

I have always been a quasi-believer in Karma. I find it comforting to think that if you do the right thing and treat people well, you will be rewarded. Better still, if you are rotten, you get yours in the end. A big Karmic SmackDown!! I hope that it works like that anyway. Otherwise what's the point of it all? 

A few days ago I bumped into a girl that I half-knew from way back in the nineties. I never liked her. Possibly the reason I only HALF knew her. She was never beautiful, but she SO thought she was. The chick had a bad vibe!  Now I have to admit that she WAS alright looking. No amount of good looks can justify a "I am so special" attitude though. I am embarrased to admit that when i saw her this week I was SO happy to see that she was a wreck! She had gained a few pounds. (who hasn't?) She also looked very wind-burned. Like she had driven through the desert with her head hanging out of the car window. I loved it. I know Karma would not appreciate that kind of thinking but I can't deny how I felt. 

Luckily, Karma made sure to let me down today. So I won't worry about the bad JooJoo I should get from enjoying the trouble of others. I happened upon ANOTHER girl I knew from around that same period of my life. You know, mid AIDS....pre meth. Around the time I stopped listening to Kriss Kross and started enjoying music by people who played instuments. Anyway, this girl was always very nice to me. Quick with a smile and good for a laugh. A real Peach!  Sadly, she was MORE than a wreck. All of the positive energy she gave off back in the day could not save her from her fate. She was using a walker. She looked ill and I think she might have grown a hump on her back. Damn you Karma!!  Why have you let me down? 

My real worry is that Karma doesnt exist at all. I realise as I write this that I am really talking about God. And one of the great unanswerable questions. Why do bad things happen to good people? It's always been a bit of a bugaboo for me. I want to believe but that one simple question as always made it difficult. 

I am hoping that Karma is just a better judge of people than me. It's quite possible that Girl #1 Got exactly what she deserved. And girl #2?? Maybe she was violating small animals with a chocolate Zinger when nobody was looking.  That would make the hump seem justified. I really do want to hold on to Karma! If it's as real as I hope, I think I will be sleeping on my back tonight, because Karma may not owe me a SMackDown, but a violation with a RingDing might be warranted.